Rolling with resistance

Yesterday my world collapsed, and yet everything is where it needs to be. My work doesn’t think I am well enough to fulfill my job duties. I can’t disagree with them. My health is just continuing to deteriorate, and I’m not much closer to any sort of answer or treatment.

I …

Acclimation and Adapting

Earlier this month I realized that I had not really had much improvement in my symptoms after months of antibiotics, I had simply just acclimated to them. I think my fatigue has improved some, though when I looked at the full picture my condition had actually worsened. I had simply …

3am ramblings

My ear decided about an hour ago to start threatening another Meniere’s attack. Between the anxiety that creates and the discomfort sleep is awhile off. I’m trying to just get back into blogging and reconnect. It’s hard because bad news and a bad mood is not something I like to …

WTF is wrong with me

I haven’t been posting because I’ve been very ill. My Lyme treatment didn’t go according to plan. A week ago my doctor yanked me off my antibiotic because I was having a Lupus like reaction. Instead of my low grade fevers resolving with treatment they went up. The last few …

The Meaning of Serenity

This is a personal essay I wrote in 2008 on the Serenity Prayer and identifying the meaning and experience of Serenity. This actually predates Mindfulness being commonplace in Psychology which is why that term is not used, but it is most certainly applicable.

The serenity prayer has always been …

Out of the Downward Spiral

I had no clue that a condition I have had for almost twenty years could spiral (literally, and I mean literally in the correct use of the word) out of control.  I went back to the work at the end of July, but I was still struggling with daily migraines. …